Deceived

Before the dawn a pain crept into my mind.
A fear that I would never see the dawn.
I'll never know for I fell asleep 
and woke to see the night.

Before the door a pain crept within my mind.
A fear that you would never open it. 
I'll never know for no one was behind the door
and a gentle rain fills the night.

Before You spoke a pain crept into my heart.
A fear that you would go away.
I'll never know for I left in a sudden rush
and I hear you crying in the night.

I've come to know the pain of deceit.
For in my fear I deceived myself.
I'll never know the love I've lost
and spend my life lost in the night.

Annette Rust copyright 1998